Chocolate Festival in Oakdale, before significant Krunkage

Me racing on the stand

Cheryl on a Ducati

Eliminate Worry

I’ve realized that very little in life is worth worrying about. So I don’t anymore. I have virtually eliminated wory from my life. I’ve become a much happier person.
Everything will work itself out eventually, until then just go with whatever, can it really be that bad? If it is change it.
Another thing i’ve done that helps is become more active in the things I care about. Why worry about it if your not willing to change it. If your working to change it don’t worry about it.

It sounds simple, but it’s worked for me.

Example:
This might sound kind of evil but whatever.
I was best freinds with this girl for a long time. We have a long involved history, and we have always fought a lot. A while back i realized that reason that I was soo upset by some of the things that happened was because I was disapointed, or worried about what had happened. She’s not my friend anymore, I don’t expect her to be. I’m not disapointed when she does something I dissagree with. I’m not worried that something i do is going to dissapoint her. I still love her with all my heart, but she’s not my friend.
It’s entirely mental, but isn’t that what worry is? By lowering my expectations I’m no longer worried about the outcome of my decisions.

I love my life!

See more progress on: Worry less.

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Gain that weight

Heck yes alright I’m a skinny f**ker. 6’3” and i was down to about 140, the most i’ve ever weighed was 150, I got back to my more normal 145 and now for the past few days I’ve been between 145 and 150, so the goal is to gain another 10 pounds so i’m shooting for 155-160, 160 is theoretically the lowball of what i should weight for my height, and the goal is also to have that all be muscle so yeah I should be in prety damn good shape if and when i get there.

See more progress on: gain 10 pounds

Evan, between questions

Being useful

So I've sort of determined that most of the people in my life only want me around when I'm useful.
My previous best friend of hella days, almost can't stand me anymore. I've recently taken to the idea that we are not friends, which makes things easier because I'm not expecting her to be my friend so when she does something non-friend like I'm not disappointed. It works well most of the time. And when she does something friend like, I'm pleasantly surprised. So most of the time she is really short with me and all but when there is something that she needs me to do for her she gets all nice to me, and all of a sudden wants me to hang out, which she lies to her bf about by the way. He and I don't get along for various reasons, I'm just fine being in the same room with him though, he's getting better, for a while he wouldn't even come in the same building. I work with her by the way.
And my English teacher hates me, on Tuesday it got real bad she was all threatening to drop me from the class if I didn't and shit. Thursday there was no problem, and mysteriously she needed my help with the projector and shit. Hmm this is getting to be way to coincidental.

Whatever, I'm gunna leave anyway, get my ass out of this place. I love the song I'm listening to right now -- Breaking Benjamin - Rain --

Thanks to the peeps last night for coming out to OC Thursday, I really appreciate that, we had 15 people last night. Bob's still getting all pissy about it, I think he thinks we drive away customers. NOT TRUE, we were just 15 people that would not have been there otherwise.
Got to go to work doing books again today.

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Sitting here in the morning.
Supposed to be getting ready for work.
I'm going to leave, I'm not sure when.
Regardless of how the college thing turns out,
I'm leaving.
It's time for me to go.
There's nothing left for me here.
I'm going nowhere.
I've got no reason not to go nowhere somewhere else.

I've discovered I'm incapable of holding a conversation with someone.
I was sitting on a couch in Starbs with LJ and Pat the other day,
I thought we were all talking.
Then some of Pat's friends showed up and he started talking to them.
I realized that I couldn't hold a conversation with LJ,
I'm not sure why.
It led me to the realization that LJ and Pat had been having the conversation,
I had just been inserting little comments here and there.

I'm not sure if I have any friends anymore.
Everyone that I would sort of consider my friend,
turns out to be someone else's friend,
that happens to be able to stand me.

My mom says i cant ride, i'll show her

Laguna seca

AND THEN...

AND THEN...: "Monday, September 06, 2004
Bush Hates Grandmas
If your eyes glaze over whenever Bush mentions 'medicare', here's what he said about it, merely four days ago, during his nomination speech:

I believe we have a moral responsibility to honor America's seniors, so I brought Republicans and Democrats together to strengthen Medicare. Now seniors are getting immediate help buying medicine.

But then a funny thing happened this Monday.

Medicare premiums will rise 17.4 percent next year, or $11.60 a month, the largest dollar increase in the program's 40-year history, the U.S. Health and Human Services Department said Friday.

It may not be much, but it brings the monthly total to nearly $80.00 a month taken from Grandpa's retirement check. And that means fewer carmels to enjoy when you visit. Why don't you ever visit?"

Read The Book - John Taylor Gatto

Check this out, I read the prologue so far and i'm actually contemplating buying it. Think about that I mister "have only read three books" am thinking about buying a book based on the prologue alone.
Read The Book - John Taylor Gatto

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It didn't come out but it said something about "blah(heart)BJAY" It was funny.

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